Ye kaisa sanjog

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Mujhe apni almari tak jane ke liye uske paas se gujarnaa thaa. jab main uske paas se uske panv ke upar se guzra to maine uske panv ekdam se hilte dekhe jaise use mere itne paas se guzarne ke karan mere dwara kuch karne ki ashanka ho. Shaayad wo sparsh pana chahti thee. Us samay wo bahut hi madak lag rahi thee aur main use chune ke liye mara ja raha thaa.

Main bed par us sathan par baitha jo uski kursi ke bikul nazdik thaa. Ab hum ek dusre ke saamne baithe the aur hamare bich doori bahut kam thee. Mere panv lagbhag uske panv ko chu rahe the. Hum dono wahan khamoshi se baithe the kyonki hamare paas kehne ke liye kuch bhi nahi thaa. Kehte bhi to akhir kya kehte? Mahaul bahut hi pyarnuma thaa magar hum ek dusre se pyar jata nahi sakte the. Main aage badhkar uska hath nahi tham sakta thaa. Wo apni jegah se uthkar bed par mere sath nahi baith sakti thee. Hamare hilne dulne par jaise yeh ek bandhan laga huya thaa, jo humen wahan is terah baithaye huye thaa. Hum paththar ki murtiyon ki terah jadvat the aur umeed kar rahe the ke kuch ho aur humen is bandhan se chutkara mil jaye. 

Agar kuch ho sakta thaa to wo yehi thaa ke wo kehti;”mujhe ab chalna chahiye”

Main use jane nahi dena chahta thaa aur mujhe yakeen thaa wo bhi jana nahi chahti hai. Magar kahin par, man ke kisi andhere kone main ek awaz humen hamare us ratri sath ko wahin khatam kar dene ke liye baar baar agah ka rahi thee. Us mahol main bahut kuch ho jane ki sambhavna thee.

Usne siraf itna keha thaa ke use ab sone ke liye jana chahiye magar usne apni jegah se uthne ji koyi koshish na ki, wo waise hi baithi thee. Tab mujhe laga ke usne mujhe ek chota sa avsar diya hai. 

"Magar kyon? Tum kyon jana chahti ho ma?" Jab mere munh se wo lafaz nikle to main uski pratikiriya ko lekar dara hua thaa

Main dar raha tha kyonk mujhe lag raha thaa ke usne mujhe jo mauka diya hai wo achetan mann se diya hai, isliye ho sakta hai wo mere lafzo ke piche chipe mere maksad ko padh na paye. Main nahi chahta thaa ke wo jane ke liye samanay tarak de; ke wo thaki huyi hai ya use neend aa rahi hai ja raat bahut ho gayi gai. Main use yeh kehte huye sunana chahta thaa ke wo isliye jana chahti hai kyonki use dar thaa ke agar wo wahan aur jyada der tak ruki to kuch aisa ho sakta thaa jo nahi hona chahiye thaa.

Main janta thaa ke wo bhi is baat ko mehsoos kar sakti hai ke hamare bich kuch hone ki sambhavna hai, isliye wo yeh baat apne hontho par la sakti thee. Asal main khud mujhe koyi andaza nahi thaa ke agar wo wahan ruki to kaya ho sakta thaa. Hamare rishte ki maryada itni unchi thee ke us samay bhi, un halaton main wahan is terah uske samne baith kar main jyada se jyada ek madhur chumban ki umeed kar sakta thaa. Halanke meri pent main mera pathar ki trrah tana huya lauda is baat ki gwahi bhar raha thaa ke agar wo jyada der wahan rukti to kya kaya ho sakta thaa.

Mera lauda tana huya thaa! Main kamounmad main jal raha thaa! Aur main kabool karta hun ke meri is halat ki vejah mei ma thee, magar rona bhi isi baat ka thaa ke wo keri ma thee.

Main janta thaa ke uski halat bhi kuch kuch mere jaise hi hai. Hum ek dusre ke itne paas paas baithe the ke ek dusre ke jsm ki garmi ko mehsoos kar sakte the. Magar is dharti par jite ji yeh namumkin thaa ke hum apni uttejna ki us halat ko ek dusre ke smne svikar kar lete, ja ek dusre ko is bare main koyi ishara kar sakte ja vastav main hum apni uttejna ko lekar kuch kar sakte.

Usne meri baat ka jwab bhut der se diya. Wo apne pairon pa nazar tikaye phusphasayi, "mujhe nahi malum"

Mujhe laga ke anukul pristhition main uska jwab ekdam sahi thaa. Usne un chand lafzon main bahut kuch keh diya thaa.

"Yehan par hamare siva aur koyi nahi hai" maine bhi phusphasa kar keha. Meri baat sidhi si thee, magar un halaton ke maddenazar unke mayne bahut gehre the.

"Lekin agar main rukti bhi hoon to hum karenge kaya?" Uska jwab bahut jaldi aur sehjata se aaya magar mujhe nahi lagta thaa ke vastav main un lafzon ka koyi khas matlab bhi thaa.

Mere paas lakhon sujhav the ke uske rukne par hum kaya kaya kar sakte the magar mere munh se siraf itna hi nikla, "kuch bhi ma, jo tumhe achha lage" 

Hum wahan kuch der bina kuch kiye aise hi khamoshi se baithe rahe. Shaayad yehi thaa jo hum kar sakte the, bass khamoshi se baith sakt the, yeh sohte huye ke vastav main hum kaya kaya kar skte the, bina kuch bhi vaisa kiye.

Antetah khamoshi asehay ho hgayi. Wo aur jayda der sthir nahi baith sakti thee. Wo ekdam se uthkar khadi ho gayi.


Main uske us terah ekdam se uth jane se dar sa gaya. Main bhi usk sath uth kar khada ho gaya, ike falsrup ab hum ek dusre ke samne khade the.

Hum ek dusre ke behad paas paas khade the. Hum ek dusre ke samne raat ke gehan sannate main chehre ke samne chehra kiye khade the.

Usne pehla kadam uthaya, shaayad wo iske liye wo mujhse jayada tayyar thee.

Usne pehla kadam uthaya, shaayad wo iske liye mujhse jyada tyyar thee. Wo aage badhi aur usne mujhe alingan main le liya. Mujhe iski katayi umeed nahi thee;isliye main uske alingan ke eliye tyyar bhi nahi thaa.

Usne apni bahen meri kamar ke gird lappet di aur tezi se mujhe apne alingan main kas liya. Maine pratikiriya main aisa kuch bhi nahi kiya jiski usne umeed ki hogi. Maine bahut hi bedhang aur anupyukat tarike se use apne alingan main lene ki koshish ki magar isase pehle ke main use apne alingan main le pata , usne tezi se mujhe chod diya aur utni hi tezi se wo wahan se nikal gayi. 

Usne apne andar jo bhavnayon ka avesh dabaya huya thaa main use mehsoos kar sakta thaa. mujhe umeed thee usne bhi mere andar ke us avesh ko mehsoos kiya hoga. Agar isharon ki baat ki jaye to hum dono poori terah se tyyar the magar hamare kuch karne par maryada ka param pratibandh laga huya thaa. hum siraf wohi kar sakte the jo hamare rishte main svikarya thaa; pehle ke halaton ke maddenazar ek chumban; ab ke halation anusar ek alingan.


Yeh siraf ek alingan thaa, aur kuch bhi nahi magar uske mumme mere sine par do naram, mulayam garmahat liye jalte huye nishan chod gaye the. Uske jane ke bahut der baad tak bhi main us alokik annad main dubta itrata raha.


Yeh poori terah se sthapit ho chukka thaa ke kuch na kuch ghat raha thaa aur yeh saaf thaa ke hum dono us ‘kuch na kuch’ main hissa le rahe the. Magar samasaya yeh thee ke hum jyada se jyada ek dusre ke gile hontho ko chum sakte the ya hontho se hontho par halka sa dwab daal sakte the ja alinganbadh ho sakte the. Main uski peeth ko apne hatho se sehla nahi sakta thaa jaisa main karna chahta thaa. Main uske hontho main honth daal use khule dil se chum nahi sakta thaa. Main uske mummo ko ichchanusar chu nahi sakta thaa. Merale hath uske mummo ko chune ke liye tarasate the magar main aisa nahi kar sakta thaa.


Main soch raha thaa ke meri terah uske bhi arman honge. Jis terah main use chune ke liye tarasata thaa kya wo bhi esi ichchayen pale baithi thee. Ab tak jo kuch hamare bich huya huya thaa us hisab se to uske bhi mere jaise kuch arman honge. Magar mujhse jayada shaayad wo khud ke armano ko kabu kiye huye thee. Akhirkar main ek marad thaa, aur ek marad hone ke nate, mere liye apni sagi ma ke liye kamniy bhavnayen rakhna koyi bahut badi baat nahi thee. Magar ek ma hone ke nate, uske liye apne bete ke liye esi bhavnayen rakhna bahut galat baat thee. Magar isme, koyi shak nahi thaa ke hamare bich wo kamniy bhavnayen mojud thee


Maine faisla kar liya thaa ke ab main sidhe sidhe hamare bich jismani sampark badhane ki koshish karunga. 


Us raat ne hamare rishte main aur bhi ghnishtata la di thee. Hamari agli raat sabse badhiya rahi. Hum ek dusre se kafi sehajata se baat kar rahe the, balke bich bich main ek dusre ko ched bhi rahe the. Aisa lagta thaa jaise hamare rishte ne nayi unchayi ko chu liya thaa magar is sab ke bavjood thodi doori thee jo shaayad humen apne bich banayi rakhni jaroori thee. 


Agli raat jab usne keha ke use jana chahiye to main bhi uske sath jane ke liye uth khada huya. Mujhe uske baad wahan akele baithne ka man nahi thaa. yeh hamar nayi dincharya ban chuki thee aur main iska jyada se jyada fayda uthana chahta thaa. 

Humne battiyan band ki, darwajon ko band kiya aur corridor ki aur badh gaye. Jab hum mere room ke samne pahunch gaye to main use ‘goodnight’ kehne ke liye ruk gaya.

Jab usne dekha ke main corridor ke bicho bich ruk gaya hun, usne corridor ke dusre sire ki aur dekha jehan se corridor uske bedroom ki side ko mudh jata thaa. main samagh gaya ke wo yehi dekhne ki koshish kar rahi thee ke wahan koyi hai to nahi, jiska siddha matlab thaa ke wo ykini banana chahti thee ke kahin mere pitaji to wahan se humen nahi dekh rahe the. Usne mujhe darwaje ki aur dhakela. Jahir thaa wo corriodor main ‘goodnight’ nahi kehna chahti thee. 

Ye apne aap main bahut romanchkari thaa. Corridor main kisi dwara dekhe jane se bachne ke liye use meri aur jukhna thaa. Aisa karte waqat use na chahte huye bhi apna jism mere jism par dhire se dabana pada. Main use apni bahon main lena chahta thaa magar main aisa kar na saka. Main usase us terah alinganbadh nahi ho sakta thaa. Usne apna jism upar ko uthaya take uske honth mere hontho tak pahunch sake, jisase asavdhani main usne apne mumme meri chati par ragde aur phir mujhe ek chumban diya.


Wo ek nam chumban thaa. Hum dono ne apne honth gile kiye huye the bina is baat ki parwah kiye ke dusra is par etraaj jata sakta hai. Chumban main thoda sa dwab bhi thaa. Hamari dincharya ab ek sade subhratri chumban ki jegah ek alinganbadh subhratri chumban main badal chuki thee. Hamara chumban ab sukhe hontho ka namatar ka sparash na rehkar ab nam lavon ka milan thaa jisme hontho ka hontho par halka sa dwab bhi hota thaa. uske mumme meri chahti par bahut sundar sa ehsaas chod gaye the aur pakde jane ki sambhavna ka romanch alag se thaa. Hum kuch aisa kar rahe the jo humen nahi karna chahiye thaa aur waisa karte hum aram se pakde bhi ja sakte the. Yeh bahut hi romanchpuran thaa, ek se badhkar kayi mayno main. Yeh baat ke wo pakde jane se bachne ki koshish kar rahi thee, uske is chadyantar main shamil hone ki khuleaam gawahi de rahi thee. Yeh ek tarfa nahi thaa.


Yeh baat ke wo mujhse chip kar gopniyta se chumna aur alingan karna chahti thee, yeh saabit karti thee ke uski samagh anusar hamara waisa karna sharamnaak thaa. Aur is baat ke bavjood, ke hamara wo vartav uski nazar main sharamnaak thaa, wo phir bhi mujhe chumna chahti thee, mujhe alingan karna chahti thee, saabit karta thaa ke wo kuch aisa kar rahi thee jo use nahi karna chahiye thaa matlab wo kuch aisa aisa kar rahi thee jo ek ma hone ke nate use nahi karna chahiye thee magar wo, wo sabh karne ki dili khawahishmand thee.


Main kamottejit thaa! Mere andaze se wo bhi poori kamottejit thee. Mujhe uske badan ka mere badan se sparsh bahut anandmayi lag raha thaa. Mgar, yehin hamare liye ek bahut badi samasya thee, wo hamari hadh thee, hum uske age nahi badh sakte the. Main age badhkar uske jism ko apni hasrat anusar chu nahi sakta thaa. Wo apni hasrat mujh par Jahir nahi kar sakti thee. Halanke sabhi sanket ek khas disha main ishara kar rahe the, magar humen aise dikhava karna thaa ke wo disha hai hi nahi. 


Wo wahan mere samne kashan bhar ke liye ruki thee, jaise kuch soch rahi thee. Phir usne mere hath apne hathon main liye aur unhe dhire se dabaya aur phir wo wahan se chali gayi. Main wahan khada raha aur use corridor ke kone se apne room ki muudte dekhta raha. Maine uski bhavnayon ki prablata mehsoos ki thee. Mujhe bura lag raha thaa ke main use apne bhavavesh ki parchandata na dikha saka. Main usase kahin jayada khud par kabu kiye huye thaa.

Hamare bich koyi chakkar chal raha hai, bina shak phir se yeh baat ubhar kar samne aa gayi thee. Uska mere hathn ko thamna aur unhe dabana bahut hi kamuk thaa. Main kamna kar raha thaa ke kash maine use aaj kisi ALAG prakar se chuma hota. Magr ab to wo ja chuki thee, so meri kamna kamna hi rahi. Main bahut hi uttejit thaa. Maine khud se vayda kiya ke agli baar main sabh kuch behtar taike se karne ki koshish karunga. 


Agli raat, main tv dekhne drawing room main nahi gaya. Main dekhna chahta thaa ke wo mujhe dekhne aati hai ja nahi. Main dekhna chahta thaa ke kaya wo hamare bich kisi aur jismani sampark ke liye aati hai jaise wo us raat aayi thee. Maine darwaja thoda sa khula chod diya, ek sanket ke taur par ke main uske aane ki umeed kar raha hoon. 


Maine drawing room se tv ki awaz suni aur bahut nirash huya, balke bahut hatash bhi ho gaya. Ho sakta hai wo mere wahan aane ki umeed lagaye baithi ho. Magar main uska mere kamre main aane ka intezar kar raha thaa. Mujhe esi hasrat karne ke liye bahut bura mehsoos huya, magar wo hasrat poori na hone par aur bhi bura mehsoos huya. Aisa nahi ho sakta thaa. Abhi raat hone ki suruaat huyi thee, itni jaldi uska mere kamre main aana aur wo sabh hona jiski main aas lagye baitha thaa bahut mushkil thaa.