Ye kaisa sanjog

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Main thoda aage ko jhuk gaya aur uske goodnight chumban ka intezar karne laga. Aam taur par wo thoda sa jhuk jar apne honth mere hontho se chuya deti thee. Uske hath uski kamar par hote the. Magar us raat usne apna dayan hath mere bayen kandhe par rakha aur phir mujhe wo chumban diya ya mera chumban liya. Maine ise mehaj itefaq mana aur ise koyi gupat ishara samgh kar iska koyi dusra arath nahi nikala. Karan yeh thaa ke main kursi par baitha huya thaa na ke sofe par, isiliye use balance ke liye mere kandhe par hath rakhna pada thaa. Magar wo chumban aaj kuch alag terah ka thaa, isme koyi shak nahi thaa.

Yeh koyi bahhut badi baat nahi thee, magar mujhe laga ke wo hamare ekkathe baithne, sath sath tv dekhne ki aas lagaye baithe thee, use kisi ke sath ki jaroorat thee. Shaayad wo hamare adhi raat takk drawing room ke sath ki aadi ho gayi thee aur mere wahan na hone par usase raha nahi gaya thaa. Mujhe uske chumban se uski nirasha jhalkati dikhayi di.

Tabhi woh khayal mere man main aaya thaa.


Agar uske liye chumban ka ehsaas badlana sambhav thaa to mere liye bhi sambhav thaa chahe kisi aur tarike se hi sahi.

Jitna jyada main is bare main sochta utna hii jyada iske natije ko lekar uttejit hota gyaa. Jab se maine use kehte suna thaa ke wo chudwane ke liye tadap rahi hai tabse mere andar ek jwala si dhadhak rahi thee. Us jwala ki lapten aur bhi tez ho jati jab wo mere sath akeli adhi raat takk tv dekhti thee. Uski phone wali baatchit se main janta thaa ke wo kabhi kabhi itni uttejit hoti thee ke use raat ko neend nahi aati thee. Mujhe lagta thaa ke jab jab wo adhi raat ko tv dekhne aati thee uski wohi halat hoti hogi, chahe mere karan nahi magar ati kamottejna ki halat main to wo hoti hi thee.


Agar us din bhi uski wohi halat thee jab wo mere sath thee to kya wo meri aur hasrat se dekhegi? Jaise main uski aur dekhta thaa? kya uske riday main bhi wohi aag jal rahi thee jo mere dil main jal rahi thee? Kya yeh sambhav thaa ke uske andar ki aag ko proksh roop se aur bhadka diya jaye take kam se kam wo meri aur kisi dusri bhavn se dekh sake jaise main uski aur dekhta thaa? Kya main uske dimag main wo vichar daal sakta thaa ke main uski samsayon ke samadhan ki ek sambahvna ho sakta hun, chahe wo siraf ek vichar hota isase jyada kuch nahi.

Mere liye in swalon ke jwab janane ka koyi sadhan nahi thaa, mera matlab ke agar main suruaat bhi karta to kahan se. Kayi baar mujhe lagta jaise main uski baichaini ko uski akulahat ko mehsoos kar sakta hoon magar wo siraf ek andaza hota. Main yakeen se kuch nahi keh sakta thaa. Koyi aisa rasta nahi thaa jisase ek ishara bhar hi mil jata je wo kaise mehsoo karti hai.

Uske chumban ne uski kuch bhavnayon se bagavat jaroor ki thee magar unka us sabh se koyi vasta nahi thaa jo main janana chaht thaa. Jaroor use nirasha huyi thee jab main uska sath dene ke liye wahan nahi thaa magar wo prabhav ek manovagyanik thaa. Use mera sath acha lagta thaa isliye uska nirash hona sambhav thaa jab uska beta use company dene ke liye wahan mojud nahi thaa. Main use kisi aur vejah se nirash dekhna achahta thaa. Chahe ek alag trike se hi sahi magar main ek jaroort poori kar raha thaa, ek bete ki terah nahi balke ek marad ki terah. Main wo janana chahta thaa. Main mehsoos karna chahta thaa ke jismani jaroorat poori karne ki sambhavnamagar hamare bich mojud thee, chahe wo siraf ek sambhavna hoti aur hum us par kabhi amal na karte.

Ab achanak se maine mehsoos kiya ke mere paas ek mauka hai kam se kam ye pata karne ka main kitne pani main hoon. Agar main chumban ko apni traf se kisi terah koyi alag roop de saku, use ek ishara bhar kar saku, use ek alag ehsas kara saku, us chingari ko jo usk andar dehak rahi thee hawa dekar ek marad ki terah bhadka saku na ke ek bete ki terah tab shaayad main ki sambhavna ka pata laga sakunga. 

Us raat main bahut bahut der takk sochta raha, aur ek yojna banane laga ke kis terah main hamari ratri ke chumbano main kuch badlav kar unme kuch ehsaas daal saku.

Jab main natije ke bare main alag alag dishayon se socha to uttejna se merathank you badan kampane laga. Ek taraf yehan main yeh soch kar bahut uttejit ho raha thaa ke agar maine apni yojna anusar kam kiya to uska natija kya hoga. Wahin dusri aur mujhe apni yojna ke vipreet natije se bhay bhi mehsoos ho raha thaa. Uski pratikirya ya to skaratamik ho sakti thee, jisme wo kuch esi pratikiriya deti jo is agg ko aur bhadka deti, ya phir uski pratikirya nkaratmak hoti jisase us sambhavana ke sabhi dwar hamesha hamesha ke liye band ho jate jo sambhavna asliyat main kabhi mojud hi nahi thee.

Ab yojna bahut hi sadharan si thee. Main uski suksham pratikirya ko ek ishara man kar chal raha thaa aur iske sath apne tarike se ek pryog karke dekhna chahta thaa. Chahe yeh kuch bewkoofana jaroor lag sakta thaa magar meri yojna se mujhe wo suyi mil sakti thee jo main us ghas phoos ke bhari dher se dhundh raha thaa

Jaisa ke main pehle hi keh chuka hun hamare ratri vida ke chumban hamesha sukhe, halke se aur namlum hone wale hontho ka hontho se sparash matar hote the. Agar--main khud se dohrata ja raha thaa----Agar wo itne sukhe na rahen to? Main apne honth uske hontho par daba to nahi sakta thaa kyonki wo maryada ke khilaf hota lekin agar mere honth sukhe na rahen to? Agar usko hontho par mukhras ka ehsas hoga to? Tab uski pratikirya kya hogi? Kya wo iska jwab degi?!


Jitna jayada main apni yojna ko vyavharik roop dene ke bare main sochta raha utnana hi jyada main andolit hota gaya. Meri halat esi thee ke us raat main so bhi na saka, bas usase positive reaction milne ke bare main sochta raha.

Agki raat main plan ke mutabik tv ke aage thaa. wo aayi, jaisi main umeed lagaye baitha thaa ke wo aayegi aur mujhe wahan mojud dekhkar shaayad thodi excited hogi. Magar wo chehre se kuch bhi excitement ya khushi dikha nehi rahi thee, isase mujhe nirasha huyi aur apni yojna ko lekar main phir se sochne laga ke mujhe wo karna chahiye ja nahi magar nirash hone ke bavjood maine plan ko amal main lane ka faisla kiya. Hamesha ki terah hum kuch samay takk tv dekhte rahe, ant main wo boli, "mujhe sona chahiye beta! Raat bahut ho gayi hai"

" ok" maine jwab diya aur apne sukhe hontho par jaldi se jibh feri. 

Wo meri aur nahi dekh rahi thee jab maine apne hontho par jibh feri. Maine phir se char panch vaar aise hi kiya take honth achhe se gile ho jayen. Main hontho se laar nahi tapkana chahta thaa magar unhe itna gila kar lena chahta thaa ke wo us gilepan ko, mere ras ko mehsoos kar sake. Uske baad maine khud ko uski pratikiriya ke liye tyaar kar liya.

Mera dil bade zoron se dhadakane laga jab wo mere sofe ki aur aayi. Main thoda sa aage jo jhuk gaya take usko mere honthon takk pahunchane main asani ho sake. Main khud ko sanyyat karne ke liye mukh se saans lene laga jiske falsrup mere honth kuch sukh gaye. Maine jaldi jaldi jibh nikal hontho par feri take unhe phir se gila kar saku bilkul uske chumban se pehle, mujhe nahi malum usne mujhe aisa karte dekh liya tha ja nahi. 

Jab ma ke honth mere hontho se chuye to meri ankh band ho gyee. Mera chehra aavesh main jalte huye lal ho gaya thaa. Mujhe apni saans rokni padi, kyonki main nahi chahta thaa ke meri bhari ho chuki saans uske chehre pa itne zor se takraye.

Hontho ke gile hone se chumban ki sansanahat badh gayi thee. Yeh wo pehle wala aam sa, lagbhag na malum chalne wala hontho ka sparash nahi thaa. Aaj main hamare hontho ke sparsh ko bhali bhanti mehsoos kar sakta thaa, au mujhe yakeen tha usne bhi ise mehsoos kiya thaa.

Wo dhire se 'goodnight' phusphusayi aur apne room main jane ke liye mud gayi. Uski aur se koyi spashat pratikiriya nazar nahi aayi thee halanke mujhe yakeen thaa wo apne hontho par mera mukhras lekar gayi thee. Kuch bhi aisa asadharan nahi thaa jis par main ungli rakh sakta. Aisa lagta thaa jaise hamara wo chumban uske liye baki dino jaisa hi aam chumban thaa. Kuch bhi farak nahi thaa. Main use alag banana chahta thaa, aur umeed lagaye baitha thaa ke uska dhyaan us antar ki aur jayega magar nahi aisa kuch bhi nahi huya. Ab nirash hone ki bari meri thee. Jitna main pehle aaveshit thaa ab utna hi hatash ho gaya thaa.