Ye kaisa sanjog

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Maine kisi sakratmak ya nakaratmak pratikiriya ki aasha ki thee. Apne bed pe leta huya main us raat bahut thaka huya, jazbati taur par nirash aur hatash thaa. Main kisi nkaratmak prtikiriya ko asani se swikar kar leta magar koyi bhi pratikiria na milne ki sthiti ke liye main bilkul bhi tyaar nahi thaa. Us raat jab main neend ke liye bed par karvaten badal raha thaa, to mera dhyaan apne lund par gaya jo mere josh se thoda akda huya thaa iske bavjood ke baad main mujhe nirasha hath lagi thee.


Meri nirasha agle din bhi mere sath rahi. Nirasha ke sath sath atamgilani aur sharam ka ehsaa ho raha thaa. Jo maine kiya thaa wo samaj, kudrat, maan mariyada ke khilaaf thaa isliye mere man main aisa karne ke liye pachtawe ka ehsaas bhi ho raha thaa. Aglli raat jab hamare drawing room main tv dekhne ka time ho gya to main lagbhag nahi jane wala thaa. Main shaayad apne kamre main hi rukta magar ye baat ke mere najanen se wo mere room main aa sakti hai maine tv room jane main hi bhlayi samjhi. Ab maine jo dhun banayi thee, uska saamna karne ka waqat thaa.

Uske vyabhaar main koyi bhi badlav dikhayi nahi de raha thaa Jo shaayad ek achi baat thee. Uski koyi bhi pratikiriya na dekh mujhe badi rahat huyi thee nake pichli raat ki terah jab uski koyi bhi pratikiriya na dekh main nirash ho gaya thaa. Mujhe ehsaas huya ke hamari dincharya main kisi tabdili ke liye main abhi tyaar nahi thaa. Maine achanak mehsoos kiya ke raat ko ma ke sath ekktthe samay bitane se mujhe bhi khushi milti hai. Is sath se ma ke dwara meri bhi ek zaroorat poori hoti thee chahe manovagyanik taur par hi sahi.

Maine hamare chumban main thoda sa badlav kar unko thoda thos banane ki koshish ki thee aur main aisa bina koyi sanket diye ja bina kuch jataye karne main safal raha thaa. Meri sharam aur atamgilani dhire dhire is rahat se gayab hone lagi ke main bina koyi keemat chukaye ja bina koyi saja paye saaf bach nikla thaa.

Halanke mere vartav main tabdili aa gayi thee. Mera usko dekhne ka nazriya badal gaya thaa. Use dekhte huye mujhe ab utni baichaini mehsoos nahi ho rahi thee. Maine ek kadam aur aage badha diya thaa aur usne mujhe na kosa tha thaa na hi koyi apatti jatayi thee. Us raat ma ko niharne main mujhe ek alag hi anand prapat ho raha thaa. Yeh baat yuda thee ke main yakeen se nahi keh sakta thaa ke jo kuch huya thaa use uski koyi bhanak bhi lagi thee.


Fir se wohi sabh kuch, hum baithe tv dekh rahe the , usne keha "beta! Main chalti huun, raat bahut ho gayi hai". Is vaar maine apne honth gile nahi kiye. Chahe mujhe koyi nakaratmak pritikiriya nahi mili thee phir bhi maine raat ka tajuraba dohrane ki himmat nahi ki. Main aage ko hokar thoda sa jhuk gaya aur uske chumne ka intejar karne laga take main bhi apne room main ja saku aur us sukhad meethe ehsaas main khud ko dubo saku jiski lehren mere jism main ghoom rahi heen.

Uske honth rojana ki terah mere hontho se chuye jisme mere mehsoos karne eke liye kuch bhi khaas nahi thaa.

Magar maine kuch mehsoos kiya, kuch halka sa, alag sa.


Magar maine kuch mehsoos kiya, kuch halka sa, alag sa.

Yeh bilkul halka sa thaa, lagbhag na mehsoos hone wala. Mere dilo dimag main koyi sandeh nahi thaa ke maine uske hontho ko halke se, bilkul halke se sikudate mehsoos kiya thaa. Jaise hamare honth kisi ke gaal par chumban lete huye sikudate hain theek vaise hi lekin bahut mahin se. Ye meri ma ka hontho se hontho ka sparsh nahi thaa balke ek chumban thaa. Yeh pehli baar thaa jab ma ke hontho ne mere hontho par koyi halchal ki thee.. Aam halaton main, main ise uske hontho ka asamay sikudana maan kar radd kar deta magar ye kudrati taur par hone ki vajaye svaichchik jayada jaap raha thaa. Ek halka chumban hone ke ilawa ek hlka sa, mahin sa dwab bhi thaa jo uske hontho ne mere hontho par lgaya thaa.

Agle din bhar main bahut pareshan raha. Main bas yehi soche ja raha thaa ke yeh vastav main huya thaa ja yeh sabh meri klapana ki upaj thee kyonki main pehle se kuch acha hone ki umeed lagaye baitha thaa. Kya wo bhi meri terah hamare chumban ko aur jyada gehra banana chahti thee ya phir iske ulat wo chumban ko aur gehra hone se rokne ki mehaj koshish kar rahi thee jaise mere hontho ke gilepan ne jo ehsas hamare chumban main bhara thaa wo usko rokna chahati hogi jisase hontho ko sikodne se wo shaayad pakka kar rahi thee ke uske hontho ka kam se kam hissa mere hontho ko chuye.

Apni jigyasa shant karne ke liye jaroori thaa ke main ise ek baar phir se mehsoos karta. Mujhe uske sath kal raat jaisi sthiti main hona thaa aur is baar main hamare subh ratri chumban ki har tafseel par poora dhyaan dene wala thaa. Main is baat par bhi tarak vitark kar raha thaa ke mujhe apne honth gil karne chahiye ja nahi magar isase halaton main badlav ho jata. Mujhe kal hi ki terah aaj bhi apne honth sukhe rakhne the aur phir dekhna tha ke uske honth kaya kamal dikhate hain!

Wo sham aur raat suru hone ka samay aur bhi baichaini bhara thaa, magar utna baichaini bhara nahi thaa jitna jab hum tv dekh rahe the, tab thaa jab main apne subhratri chumban ka intezar kar raha thaa aur samay lag reh thaa jaise tham gaya ho. Wo intezar bhut kashatdayi thaa.

Magar ant main uske jane ka samay ho gaya au hamare ratri vida ke us chumban ka bhi.

Main hamesha ki terah aage ko jhuk gaya. Maine apni ankhe band kar leen take main apna poora dhyaan us chumban par kendrit kar saku.

Maine uske honth apne hontho par mehsoos kiye.
Magar maine uske hontho ka koyi bhi dwab apne hontho par mehsoos nahi kiya jaisa maine pichli raat mehsoos kiya thaa. Usne apne honth bhi nahi sikode jaise usne pichli dafa kiya thaa.

Magar phir bhi kuch alag thaa, kuch antar thaa. Mera upar ka honth uske band hontho ki ghrayi main asani se phisal gaya.

Jaahir thaa is baar usne apne honth gile kiye the.

Ab yeh matar ek sanjog thaa ja phir usne janbujhkar unhe gila kiya thaa, main kuch nahi keh sakta thaa kyonki maine use apne honth gile karte nahi dekha thaa. Maine unka gilapan tabhi mehsoos kiya thaa jab wo mere hontho chuye the. Main yeh maan kar nahi chal sakta thaa ke usne aisa jaanbujhkar kiya thaa, chahe usne aisa jaanbujhkar kiya ho to bhi. Magar ek baat tayy thee; agar usne unhe janbujhkar gila kiya thaa to iska matlab wo bhi hamare ratri chumban ko aur thos banana chahti thee, usme aur jayada gehrayi chahti thee, theek vaise hi jaise maine koshish ki thee hamare chumban ko aur gehra banane ki, usme aur ehsaas jagane ki.

Main uske hontho ki nami apne hontho par mehsoos kar sakta thaa bbalke jab baad main maine apne honth chate to uska swad bhi le sakta thaa. Main soch raha thaa ke kya usne bhi mere hontho ka gilapan aise hi mehsoos kiya thaa aur kya usne bhi uska swad chakha thaa jise maine uska chakha thaa. Kya usko bhi mera mukhras meetha laga thaa jaise uska mukhras mujhe mitha laga thaa. Main uske jane ke kafi samay baad takk apne hontho ko chatata raha take chumban ka wo swad aur sansnahat bani rahe.

Meri ma ne mujhe subhratri ke liye nahi chuma thaa. Meri ma ne mujhe asliyat main chuma thaa chahe bahut halke se hi sahi. Chahe wo janbujhkar kiya thaa chahe wo siraf ek sanjog thaa, meri jangho ke bich paththar ki terah kathor lund ko us antar ka pata nahi thaa. Us raat mujhe neend bahut der baad aayi kyonki mujhe buri terah akade lund ke sath sona pada thaa.

Hairat ki baat thee ke agle din mujhe sharam aur atamglani ka ehsaas pehle ki tulna bahut kam ho raha thaa. Maine apni sagi ma ke karan huyi apni uttejna ko swikar liya thaa aur uske karan hone wali apni uttejna ko lekar ab sant thaa. Apni ma ke bare main esi bhavnayen rakhna sahi thaa---- jab takk ke wo siraf mere dimag takk simat thee. Halanke hamare bich hani rahit mann ko gud-gudane wala ek khel chal raha thaa, magar antetah yeh ek khel hi thaa, mujhe nahi lagta thaa ye bahut aage takk badhega. Akhirkar wo meri ma thee. Main uske karan uttejit ho sakta thaa aur shaayad isme kuch galat nahi thaa. Magar main uske sath wo sabh nahi kar sakta thaa, jo ek mrad meri ma jaisi sundar, kamuk aur madakata se bharpoor nari ke sath karna chahega. Hamara rishta iski ijajat nahi deta thaa.

Chahe hum dono ne ek dusre ko gile hontho se chuma thaa, magar ye hamare bich kuch badlane ke liye nakafi thaa. Agar usne bhi apne honth svaichcha se gile kiye the to humne yeh maan kar aisa kiya thaa ke dusre ko hamari mansha ki malumat nahi hai, aur humne yeh sambhavit asivkarta ke tehat kiya thaa. Matlab agar humme se ek aitraj jatata to dusra bholepan ka natak kar saaf saaf mukar sakta thaa ke hamare un chumbano main usne kuch bhi joda hai aur wo siraf ma bete ke bich sadharan 'goodnight' chumban hain. Hum us seema pe halka sa dwab bana rahe the magar asliyat main hum yeh kabhi kabool nahi kar sakte the ke hum seema par koyi dwab daal rahe the. Kuch tha to jaroor magar hum us kuch ko theek se padh nahi pa rahe the. Aur hum us kuch par amal to bilkul bhi nahi kar sakte the. Jis pal humame ek us kuch par amal karta to dusra khudbakhud usase bhag khada hota. Yehi hamari niyati thee.
Maine apne prayog ko kuch aur main viksit hone ki umeed nahi ki thee. Yeh har rerah se ek hanirahit prayog thaa jo hamare tanha dilon ko raat ke akelepan main thoda gudguda sakta, humame thoda josh bhar sakta, nason main behte thande khoon main thodi garmi la sakta magar yeh kuch bada hone ki bhumika nahi ban sakta thaa. Wo meri ma thee aur main uska beta thaa. Kudrat ki aur se maryada ki rekha khinchi gayi thee aur wo rekha kabhi bhi paar nhi ki ja sakti thee---kabhi bhi nhi.